Friday, July 18, 2008
Care for a Night Cap?
My mom died 12 weeks and 3 days ago.
She was busy running things as usual in February, then she was sick in the hospital in March, and then in April I watched her die, heard her last heartbeat. I've had so many mixed feelings of sadness, anger, emptiness and an overwhelming sense of loss. Days and nights where I've cried on and off endlessly it seems, and then surprisingly - a whole day will go by and I won't think about my grief even once! But this week has been hard. I've been up in the middle of the night feeling emotions I never felt before, and cannot describe either. My latest late-night painting is titled "Care for a Night Cap?" and it was drawn from still life (no photo for this simple little number) and uses a limited palette: Pyrelene Green, Alizarin Crimson and Indanthrone Blue. All Daniel Smith paints which I love for so many reasons, not the least because they re-wet so remarkably well in the mixing tray. So for those late-night sketches, I'm not opening tubes of paint, just re-wetting the dried paint in my tray.
I'd been looking for a good reason to lay down Pyrelene Green in a rich, pure wash and I'm so pleased with the result. It's a gorgeous and incredibly diverse color - you can even use it to cool down a too-rosy portrait!
I wandered over to our bookshelf and took down a bottle of dark caramel-colored soft drink that we brought back from St. Lucia in 2004 - it was a very good year, however I don't think this particular soda ages well! The bottle, however, is intriguing in its elongated shape and heavy stature. After a quick sketch, I laid down the color very quickly, wet-in-wet with a #8 square brush to ensure that the lines were loose (using a square brush frees me from adding too much detail).
I'm hoping to sleep better this weekend - here's hoping that you have a good night's sleep also.